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when you yawn deep into your teeth didnt think you could stretch that smile anymore huh yeah you can reach into those roots down through those mortal mortar molar bowls theres tendrils down below and you can pull on them with nimble mind fingers with the connections between parts of you that you forget make up all of you together  wound round down bound  bow to that ceaseless loop that irreverent collection of sacred connection  not a drill baby drill but a reach deep baby reach deep you can pull on the roots of those molars with mouth closed  pretend there is a cool cold marble in there and then it appears between your fingers linked over another  on your lap and you yawn from your fingers and your spine bows forward reaching strings pulled up at your shoulders and wings sprout of threads and  your teeth get relief  underneath 

it is imagining stepping back, into your body. from where ever it was you were just floating inside of your mind outside of your life. the act of asking one to imagine doing this is in and of itself a floating away so instead of imagining, just return. something about these practices is that if you have not been experiencing them by doing them someone telling you to do them can seem so abstract, but after the perceptual shift of understanding has been made through practice, it is difficult to explain them another way other than the very way that it was explained to you before you understood. i want to start to try to speak not metaphorically but actually to the experience of energy and energetic engagement. recognizing that inside of your minds eye you can go somewhere completely else and what a gift to travel somewhere that has not been but could be or may be already is that you could meet some day if you find your way there. but if you are unable to come back to where you stand and l...

how we know that which which we cannot know before it is known  because it is imprinted on our soul

they go, they leave, and they do not come back until it happens they are in a process of going everyone else is in a state of holding on and then they leave and they do not return not ever no matter how much you plead or rage or weep  and it is the unfathomable truth that we are forced to try to wrap ourselves around, as trying to thin oneself out to the flattest, to be one atom thick all the way across and like a parachute catch the wind and try to hold it for a moment, and float back down and lay our body over a building draped as a tablecloth over the entire frame underneath the entire feast but we cannot hold with our hands or our bodies the whole wind or hold any wind at all. and the cloth does not become the table and when they leave they are gone gone gone and they do not come back and it is the undeniable truth around which we have, must, shape reality.  you can make a choice to shape and move your life and your world in as much acceptance of this truth as you can reg...

currently i am reading tyranny of normal  by leslie fiedler, sometimes i cannot tell his tone and i am shocked at what i may be reading but then i reference all of the context in which a sentence is situated and think, this must be sarcasm, or maybe the syntax is throwing me off. the deep admiration welling up from this experience for someone willing to point directly at the thing, to say it plainly, to talk of all the untruths and all the messy dirty stinky reality and stop pretending it is not happening, stop standing around squawking and flitting about the weather when in real time all of the abomonation against one another we reference everywhere else is occurring this is what i have thought about the Q situation for the time it was burgeoning, really saturated right at the tip of the collective nose, the smell and focus consuming, in that time i stayed away from it. i have recognized in myself this pattern: avoiding that which a large portion of consciousness has decided is th...

abstain to hold off but what about that hold part what is kept, what are you keeping by not receiving  how are you to ever learn what you like without trying how are you to ever know the difference between habitual conditioning and choice making  without refraining.  one does not have to come at the total cost of the other you just cannot have them both at once  the jupiter and saturn dance and discourse and discord : you only live once so do whatever you want always to the tune of your song and the bent of your desire because that is how you know and how you grow and how you show what you are and who you can be coexisting with you only live once if you do whatever you want always you leave a reverberation of repercussion in your wake that sends others spinning and leaves a careless structure for the next generations to try to build off of, atop of.  this dilemma is tangled up in technology, threads coming from saturn and jupiter making cases for and against the...