simplicity

having few or singular parts

something with a ubiquity because of the nature of its wholeness that can blanket that which is complex or transcend barriers of niche and specificity 

to say the same thing but translate it into todays language. to make something simple which can be the most difficult task --- the cardinal in derek jarman's caravaggio 

if we want to pursue all of our dreams we must be willing to do it inside of the constraints of reality, alongside what the world, social / spiritual / conscious but also ecological / biological / physical, is asking. i say asking because there is always a choice to hear and heed. if reality or the people attempting to amplify and vocalize it had a way of giving no choice that would have been exercised long ago. 

but an essential part of reality is that no matter how small it may seem, there is always a choice. 

somewhere along the lines dreams became equivalent to complete lack of boundaries, uninhibited by rules of any nature including and especially those of nature itself and the nature of oneself. anything can be changed and molded and if it gets in the way it must go. 

look how unimaginative it became. the redundancy in which we have found ourselves that we even predicted in some of the most imaginative speculations and expressions of the decades prior. pulled through time which is a watery boundary no doubt since it can be both solid and impenetrable, can be porous and swimmable, and can evaporate right before your minds eye in the state of gaseous memory.

we, humans, do well inside of some boundaries. and similarly there is an undeniable recognition of the potential and motivation to move and combine and experiment with what is to reveal what could be. charting the reverberations of these actions into the future is often argued as impossible but there is a logical thread one can follow if one acknowledges the nature of the reality of their time (historical)

values are a map for personal choice-making. legible areas of inhabitability and zones beyond where one does not wish to go, be, remain, linger, for long if ever. sure you can, but should you. people do not respond well to should though, it implies a force greater than the self is there guiding the choice and having direct line divine knowledge, or is in fact the source of knowledge themselves. consciousness as a morphic phenomenon has stretched long enough absorbed enough repetition to know that when one is claiming to know more about something other than daily life or an actual skill or true happening in the world, they are likely reaching for power over. this consciousness resides even in people who still seek religion or politics or doctors to act god and give answer. insight is possible but always biased and never conclusive. its the reason no one on any "side" trusts the government and you can find liberal and conservative theories about celebrity elite that eventually pour into the same vat. 

so should will not work. because even those who seek an answer from someone else rather than from within and together will hear it as some false authority or those seeking an authority will get too attached to whoever, whatever, voice posited the should. i guess should does no good. 

sure you can, but do you need to. 

need is tricky and sticky and subjective which is perfectly matched to the frequency of choice making itself. pulling apart need to discern a hierarchy is applicable to physiological need but at some point quickly after water, food, and protection (clothing and shelter) from environmental extremes, need becomes need in order to...

how much of your dreams are shaped by the belief that there are no limits and that you should be inspired by that. that you can have any material any color any sound any food any space live anywhere call yourself anything you desire and that is the true act of dreaming. 

the dreaming as act evolves or deteriorates into waiting, bogged down with the idea that the perfect time and conditions exist -because they must because anything is possible- and that when they arrive you will be ready to bring that dream forth into the world and it will happen with ease and exactitude and articulate all that it was when it was swimming in the well of you, poured into the pool of your mind. i wonder if there is a psycho-spiritual correlation between this waiting and the biological ability / inability to grow and birth another life form. 

nearly all day every day i am thinking, imagining what if i just did this, or that, what if i just changed my situation immediately by leaving something behind and picking something up, right in the middle of a day, in the middle of a sentence, in the middle of a life. no regard for the future or the past just for the very frame of time in which i find myself standing. 

this waiting is a absolute relinquishment to the power of constraints of reality running parallel in our perception to an absolute devotion to a faith that a time without boundaries or reality will come down the line of time and we will be in that very moment completely prepared and aligned.

recently i recounted to someone i love all of the times i can think of this moment having come to me. except this moment was not without repercussions. and so i did not take it. and looking in the rearview mirror now i think to myself were those real constraints, could i not have navigated them. a decade later i remember not going or doing or saying and here i am in the repercussions of that choice rather than the other. the attempt to circumvent repercussions is futile. 

and at the same time, bound twisted tied tethered to the inevitability of repercussions is the fact of choice making. these are the two strands that reveal themselves to be made of a thousand perhaps uncountable number of smaller strands which twist around one another, forging a stronger rope together than apart.